It’s been awhile, and although I do share tidbits extra regularly on social media and through my e-newsletter, I needed to do a full write up of what has been happening. I haven’t revealed a weblog publish since April, so this can be a lengthy overdue replace. It shares some thrilling skilled information, but additionally the private because it pertains to my well being.
This group has been an enormous a part of what has stored me afloat throughout the previous couple of, troublesome years. With my restricted bandwidth because of the ongoing spinal cerebrospinal (CSF) leak, I’ve needed to lower out a number of the work I need to do. The weblog was placed on hiatus first, as a result of updating on social media (primarily Instagram) is faster and fewer labour intensive.
However whereas I’ve not been placing out new posts right here, I’ve spent many hours updating the backend of the web site, and dealing on a lot of different issues that I needed to share. I’ve additionally seen specialists and discovered extra about my physique, sufficient that that info sheds a really totally different mild on the a few years of persistent ache I endured previous to my CSF leak.
It has taken time to course of the thread that now connects dots I by no means thought to attach, and I needed to maintain my group up to date.
Private Updates
A number of updates about how I’m feeling, these linked dots, and the place I’m residing.
Transferring to Gatineau, Quebec and Dwelling Semi-Independently
Since Might, I’ve been residing in Gatineau, throughout the river from Ottawa. My brother lives in Ottawa, and my plan is to ultimately transfer there as nicely. For now, although, Gatineau has been a stunning center floor. I acquired to spend a summer time wandering right down to the water, seeing my household, and studying learn how to stay principally alone, with a leak.

My brother and his associate come over as soon as every week to assist with issues I can not do, like getting groceries for me, and doing my laundry and my vacuuming. I’m fortunate that I’ve them to choose up the slack that my leak steals away, and I’ll by no means complain about getting extra time with individuals I like a lot.
At first, adjusting to the house felt actually deflating. There have been many issues that I couldn’t attain, or use. The mattress was too low and really painful to get out and in of. The freezer was a drawer beneath the fridge, so I couldn’t open it with out making my CSF leak worse. The dishes and pots have been too heavy for me to scrub myself, or use comfortably. The record went on.
These are fixable issues, after all. I acquired a mattress pad, a tiny freezer, and new light-weight dishes and a small pot to make use of, thanks in no small half to the Amazon present playing cards you bought me for my birthday.
However the preliminary weeks right here felt actually deflating. As people we’re so good at adjusting. Typically too good, and we overlook the place we actually are. The attitude I misplaced was that I’m truly extra disabled than I remembered, one thing that hit me laborious after I moved into this house.
Like the rest, adjusting to this new life has its ups and downs, and ultimately I acquired previous the frustration and began strategizing methods to repair the issues I used to be dealing with. I additionally acquired a kitchen rolling cart, a number of canvas storage bins since every part has to take a seat on counters to be reachable for me, and some different issues that make the place extra snug.
I used to be by no means positive if I’d even have the ability to stay independently once more. So whereas there’s a lot I want I may do, I’m very grateful that I’m able to have extra autonomy after years of being so depending on others for each little factor.

Spinal CSF Leak Standing
As I discussed, my spinal CSF leak remains to be energetic. However my physique both appears to have produced extra CSF, giving me some further “uptime”, or it has gotten barely higher. I did have a whopper of a setback earlier than my birthday in August, however in the end I’ve come again to baseline once more. That baseline now could be higher than it was final 12 months presently. I get round 5-6 hours of standing time a day, with many breaks to lie down in between.
The online of that uptime is that I’m able to put some further work in, and I’ve thus divvied up my hours towards a number of the initiatives beneath. I’ve additionally been capable of deal with longer walks, which all the time helps elevate the spirits.
A share of that uptime goes towards the requirements of life, since I’m residing alone. Doing my very own dishes, getting ready my very own meals—all of it takes effort and time, and ache. Nevertheless it’s been great, and peaceable, and like rediscovering myself once more.
My life does stay very small, and an “thrilling” day for me is after I go for a barely longer stroll than common, or make some progress in different methods. Like final month, after I was capable of go and get take-out meals at a restaurant on my own, for the primary time in a few years. It’s not anyplace close to the depth of the life I used to guide, nevertheless it stays greater than I believed I’d have the ability to claw again.
The little issues are what I now rejoice. And I’m fortunate to have others right here to rejoice with me.
Offended Mast Cells
I lately completed a really lengthy mast cell activation dysfunction web page. Nicely, for now it’s completed! I replace it when new research or analysis comes out.

Lots of you understand how powerful the final years have been when it comes to reactivity to meals, environments, and different unusual new triggers—like daylight. A few of these points began after I acquired sick in 2013, however I truly had a few years as a baby the place I might cough and itch whereas making an attempt to sleep. This went away after I hit puberty, and remained principally in repose till 2013. Then, when a lumbar puncture gave me a CSF leak, the sleeplessness, itchiness, tickling in my throat and extra got here again, along with many new points. This culminated in my going into anaphylaxis on the desk throughout my remaining spherical of blood patching.
Ever since, I’ve been struggling to stabilize and calm my immune system. I began studying about mast cells as a result of different CSF leakers with complicated instances additionally appeared to have this concern. It was a fellow leaker who steered I look into it initially.
From the web page I wrote:
Mast cells are “sentinels” of the immune system, a sort of white blood cell that helps management the immune processes within the physique. They’re known as resident immune cells as a result of they reside in tissues and never in our bloodstream. They usually reside in tissues all around the physique, from the connective tissue, to the endothelial cells, to the epithelial cells, and even within the mind.
Over time, I stored an enormous folder of notes, research, and protocols and whittled down my very own self-experimentation to one thing that has labored. I used to be capable of self-refer to a specialist outdoors of Canada (fortunately my international journey insurance coverage coated the lab work wanted to check for it, however not the specialist appointments themselves), and journey to the USA to do the required testing.
Testing confirmed that I do, actually, have this dysfunction. It’s a doozy, and it impacts each side of my day-to-day life, along with the leak. I went from consuming tons of avenue meals and touring the world, to going into anaphylaxis with sure smells, meals, or insect stings.
Given how many individuals have written me over time with unusual reactions, hives, thick sticky blood, bone ache, rashes, itching, complications, and way more, I needed to share the sources web page as a result of it goes into signs attributable to every of the techniques affected by mast cells when they’re dysfunctional.
As well as, the prevalence of long-covid through the pandemic is related. Anecdotally, lots of you wrote in to say that you simply’ve been recognized with a mast cell dysfunction following a COVID-19 an infection. This matches a number of the literature, however analysis is ongoing on this space. At the least one mast cell specialist agrees. It’s additionally much like what occurred after I acquired sick in 2013.
Given these numbers, I needed to ensure I had a useful resource web page for these of you with lengthy covid, too. It has felt so bewildering to handle and sort out this very erratic situation and I understand how exhausting it may be to take a look at the scads of very contradictory info on-line and attempt to make sense of it.
Whereas I’m clearly not a medical physician, nor do I play one on TV, I hope my analysis notes will assist sufferers navigate this difficult illness.
Wonky Connective Tissue
One other thriller solved. It seems that I additionally have a genetic situation that impacts my connective tissue. It’s known as Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (EDS), of which there are totally different subtypes. Based on the geneticist I noticed, I’ve the hypermobile kind (known as hEDS), the subtype the place the gene has not but been discovered. Analysis is thus made based mostly on scientific findings.
Method again after I began writing about this spinal faucet and what occurred thereafter, I stated that the sufferers that had connective tissue issues have been those who appeared to have the worst outcomes.
Sadly I’m in that boat.
The geneticist confirmed that disparate points I by no means would have thought to attach all lead again to my collagen synthesis. And that the worsening expression of this situation additionally explains the years of persistent ache since I acquired sick in 2013. (Apparently it’s additionally why I look so younger, although the remainder of my physique feels prefer it’s 90 years previous.)
My appointment with the geneticist was an amazing one. For starters, she was shocked by the drive of what I put my physique by means of throughout my a few years of journey. She instructed me she was stunned it took so lengthy for every part to actually collapse. She confirmed that in a few of her sufferers, getting a nasty virus can worsen the underlying collagen points, which dovetails with the adjustments in my physique and pores and skin after I acquired sick in 2013.
However even earlier than then, there have been so many unusual quirks that ran in components of my household however didn’t appear to have an effect on my associates. These included how my ligaments simply tore, how I had delayed wound therapeutic, how my pores and skin was comfortable and velvety and skinny, how versatile I used to be, the truth that native anesthetics don’t work for me—and extra.
This final issue was additionally why my spinal faucet was so excruciatingly painful.
Previous to the lumbar puncture, any considerations I raised to docs about my rising ache ranges or easily-obtained accidents have been merely dismissed as “stress.” This minimization or ignoring of signs isn’t new, however is frequent. Says geneticist Dr. Clair Francomano,
“Lots of people hear that it’s all of their head, and that there is no such thing as a physiologic foundation for his or her signs,” Francomano stated. “Significantly in the event that they’re healthy-looking younger girls, sadly there’s a tendency to dismiss their expertise.”
Through STAT Journal, “On a regular basis bumps injured her joints, however discovering the rationale took half a century“
For me, the analysis was validating. The stretchy pores and skin and painful joints and a lot extra made sense. As does celiac illness and the mast cell points. A 2021 case management report discovered that celiac illness was one of many commonest gastrointestinal situations related to EDS, and the affiliation was a lot stronger than in controls. And a special 2021 evaluation discovered that in hospitalized sufferers with MCAS, 1 in 3 had a comorbid analysis of hEDS.
Nevertheless it was additionally deflating. Connective tissue dysfunction sufferers appear to be those the place the leak repairs don’t maintain. In my years within the CSF leak teams, these of us with wonky tissues are those who blow out new leaks and/or have their previous ones re-open regularly, even with surgical procedure. This info is a part of why I’ve been so conservative about pursuing additional procedures.
The analysis additionally hit me laborious for an additional cause: all through my life, I joked that I used to be scrappy “though my physique hated me”. I’d say issues like, “oh I used to be constructed from the faulty components of different individuals!” My ex used to say I used to be constructed with no warranties (sure, as attorneys we thought this was humorous). However the reality was the alternative. Not realizing I used to be a canary in a coal mine, I put my physique by means of a lot. I pushed myself to the brink many occasions. I stubbornly stored touring even after I acquired regularly sick. Even after I handled years of persistent ache.
And all through I used to be mad.
Mad at my physique, mad at my exhaustion, mad that I couldn’t be “regular” like everybody else.
Why did I all the time get harm? Or sick? Or exhausted?
Now I’ve my reply. All these years after I was mad at my physique, I ought to have been happy with it. Regardless of these underlying issues I didn’t know, it allowed me to see the world intensely for a decade.
Now I do know.
Enterprise Updates
A number of the initiatives I’ve been engaged on within the months since I final revealed.
Sharing Assets about Ache on Patreon
I created the Patreon as a solution to settle for help from this group, however it’s slowly morphing into a spot the place I additionally share sources for people who find themselves struggling for persistent ache, or those that know somebody who’s in ache.
The unhappy actuality is that almost all of us are in a type of two classes.
Through the years, I’ve acquired many questions on how I’ve coped with my very own ache ranges. Now, I’m getting questions on how somebody can help an individual in ache. So the Patreon’s AMAs are a spot the place I reply these questions, and add further sources.
The posts I’ve shared there additionally go into how I made the house I’m in accessible, and what adjustments to the setup allowed me to deal with residing alone with the disabilities I now have. Most lately, as generally individuals really feel unhealthy about asking for assist or accepting assist, somebody requested me to speak about learn how to discuss to somebody in ache to assist them get help if they’re cussed. (I’ll be answering this within the subsequent AMA).
From suggestions to this point, these have been actually helpful. I sit up for sharing extra.
Additionally, I’m now a Patreon ambassador! I acquired an electronic mail from them in the summertime, asking if I’d be serious about making use of for an ambassadorship programme they have been constructing. I’m one in every of a small group of creators (out of their 200,000 customers) who have been accepted.
It’s nonetheless fairly new, and up to now it’s been pretty to fulfill some actually attention-grabbing, tremendous creative individuals. The ambassadorship is unpaid, however options workshop—I’ve attended just a few to this point—and rewarding breakout rooms with others within the programme to share methods and issues/successes. Different perks embrace 1:1 product help, social media options, enjoyable swag for my Patreon group, in addition to paid alternatives to take part in issues like product focus teams or inventive collaborations with their group.
I don’t know the way they discovered me, and it’s intimidating as a result of lots of the different creators have upwards of 2000 Patrons, however I’m wanting ahead to collaborating! On condition that it was all of you who requested me to start out a Patreon, I’ve this group to thank!
If you happen to’re serious about becoming a member of the Patreon group, you are able to do so right here.
A One-Time Help Choice
Once I launched my Patreon, I acquired messages from readers who needed to contribute and/or help me in my work through a one-time fee. I didn’t have that in place, however do now.
The Curious About Every little thing Publication
Regardless of all this pleasure of shifting to a brand new place, I’ve managed to maintain my e-newsletter operating. I’ve been taking part in round with format (and emojis, I can’t assist myself), and primarily spotlighting just a few vital reads every month, together with extra enjoyable photo-essays and quirky items I discover. I generally embrace private updates, however the focus of the e-newsletter is on gifted and/or vital writing value studying.
Whereas it’s on Substack, and lots of writers have moved to a paid e-newsletter mannequin, I don’t plan to take action. The Patreon is the first help system for my revenue, alongside celiac playing cards and the meals maps store. The e-newsletter I plan to maintain free.
Even when this web site has been extra dormant than I would really like, I really feel completely satisfied that CAE has gone out each month for the final 11 months.
You possibly can join beneath in case you are serious about receiving it.
A Massive Piece about Psychological Mindset (Coming Quickly)
I had a publish known as Find out how to Get By way of Horrible Occasions that I had on this web site, however I’ve briefly taken it down as I deliberate to publish it individually. Nevertheless it, and Instagram posts about resilience and reframing, caught the eye of an editor at a giant outlet, who commissioned a bit about how I discovered pleasure once more regardless of my restricted life.
I’ve been engaged on this piece over the past whereas and it’s nonetheless in enhancing, however I’m excited to share it right here together with the republication of the Horrible Occasions piece.
Redesign of Authorized Nomads:
You could have observed that the location is somewhat totally different!
Arthur the raven, my mascot, may be very distinguished. Ravens are such extremely curious birds, and I selected one as my web site’s throughline as a way to spotlight that I nonetheless am too, albeit otherwise to earlier than.

And, a brand new slogan: inquisitive about every part. I’m not telling tales by means of meals, in order that slogan needed to go. The brand new brand displays a divergence from my prior lifetime of journey and meals, but additionally the reality of who I all the time was: somebody who needed to study as a lot as potential.
I began to really feel actually dissonant after I seemed on the ‘previous’ Authorized Nomads, so this displays extra of the place I’m in life whereas nonetheless sustaining the same construction.
I’ve added well being and persistent ache to the principle classes on the house web page, too, since they’re now a much bigger a part of what I write about.
I had actually particular concepts of what I needed, in order with the final redesign to the location I offered the property (new logos, Arthur the Raven, and many others.) to an internet developer as an alternative of hiring somebody who did branding in addition to growth. The property have been inked by my artist-in-Authorized-Nomadsness Ella F. Sanders. The redesign was finished by an internet developer who works for fellow journey blogger Mike’s net growth firm. Whereas her work was paid, he donated his personal time professional bono to assist supervise the undertaking.
Put up Overhauls and Web page Updates:
My morning routine is to rise up, make espresso, after which do some work on the web site till I must take a break.
This has allowed me to slowly replace pages and posts over time, and maintain Authorized Nomads extra present.
Amongst them:
- The gluten free guides are up to date for 2021. They’re right here.
- The gluten free New York Metropolis information has additionally been up to date to replicate restaurant closures and a few newcomers to the scene which might be 100% gluten free.
- I added a historical past of Belize part, and a “the place is Belize situated” part, as a result of consider it or not that’s the most typical search time period for this publish. It’s additionally acquired COVID-19 guidelines for visiting, when you have been selecting to danger going now.
- I up to date the Vietnamese Egg Espresso Recipe with locations to get it in North America, and new items and movies concerning the candy deal with.
- I up to date my piece on sleep points and jet lag with details about learn how to sleep higher, and new research about chronomedicine and Covid-19.
- I up to date my Vipassana Meditation retreat expertise with some new information concerning the risks of these sorts of retreats, and the way in some instances they will result in a psychological break.
- The Different Careers for Attorneys web page has been up to date to incorporate pandemic info, the rise of consultants within the authorized subject, and a extra clear breakdown of learn how to go about shifting careers once you really feel overwhelmed fascinated with how to take action.
- In November 2021, I up to date my historical past of chili peppers publish to incorporate the 2021 Nobel Prize profitable analysis on capsaicin, somatosensory receptors, and ache.
RSS-to-E-mail Modifications: Feedburner is not any extra. RIP Feedburner.
Google has been threatening to chop RSS-to-email choices for Feedburner for a few years. The service was deprecated years in the past, and this July they lastly stated that they have been finished supporting that choice. So I had to determine what service to make use of as a way to get these individuals their emails. (Since I barely write right here, I had a number of time to do that!)
For these of you who opted to obtain Authorized Nomads updates through electronic mail, new posts shall be despatched by an organization known as ConvertKit. I used to be planning on switching to them proper earlier than my CSF leak occurred, so it solely took me an additional few years. My good friend Nathan began the corporate and is a very pretty human being; I’d a lot reasonably give my cash to gifted associates than strangers!
If you happen to’re not getting Authorized Nomads through electronic mail, you may join through the shape beneath. That is only for LN posts (about each six months, when it comes to publishing schedule today!). My month-to-month e-newsletter above is separate.
If you happen to have been already subscribed to get Authorized Nomads posts by electronic mail, you don’t want to do something. I needed to elucidate why the emails look totally different, and let everybody know they will additionally join that approach if they like.
That’s it for now!
Whereas the ache I’m in by no means goes away, these initiatives and my newfound autonomy have helped make these previous couple of months a number of the finest in years. I might not be cellular or touring the world anymore, however I consider that I’m capable of assist extra individuals than ever earlier than.
Whether or not it’s serving to navigate powerful occasions, understanding ache and loss, or simply giving extra context to the diseases of family members, this work feels helpful.
And feeling helpful goes a great distance towards life satisfaction for me.
Thanks for permitting me to share this journey with you.
Till subsequent time,
Jodi
Edited so as to add: I acquired just a few messages saying I’m fortunate to stay in Canada as a result of I may simply see specialists. Sure, I like Canada, however that’s not what occurred. Canada’s system is nice when you have got a standard, costly illness. You’ll not go bankrupt because of medical care when getting therapy for most cancers, for instance. However entry to specialist care, particularly for uncommon illnesses, may be very troublesome. I’ve additionally been in Quebec for a very long time and nonetheless shouldn’t have a major care doctor, as a result of the waits are so lengthy. I can thus not get a referral to a specialist.
With a purpose to see these specialists, together with throughout my time at Duke, I needed to battle laborious to get care. I feel a number of the expertise you study touring long run apply right here, too; when a path to getting from A to B is not potential, you begin to search for different, inventive connections between them.
For me, this meant self-referring to the mast cell specialist and to the geneticist, nevertheless it took a very long time to make it occur. Concurrently, I stored making an attempt to go through the standard route right here in Canada. I’m privileged that my international medical plan I used on my travels coated a few of these appointments.
The medical techniques in each international locations have their issues, and their advantages. I discovered it troublesome to navigate as I sought out these solutions, nevertheless it took my determining that these situations matched what was happening, then attending to specialists to see if these theories have been appropriate. I in any other case wouldn’t have gotten care.